Day 39

Getting over a broken heart is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward.

My existence between both of you will only make things worst now. its not that i wanted this anyway. if i had gave in earlier, none of this would happen now. i wouldnt be writing this. i wouldnt feeling this way. but it all did.

sometimes i ponder on myself. if what i did was really what i wanted. i kept thinking what would have happened if i didnt gave in 39 days ago. would all this change? or would it become worst off than now. maybe i should be glad that everything is at its place now. you and him are happy now right? so i believe the choice i have made wasnt wrong either. looks like i will have to continue to restrain myself from asking u this. until i finally stop thinking of this.

i think i can finally say this infront of u someday. "May you be happy forever with him". how will i react when i see u with him on the street? will i even say hi? maybe time will tell. let instinct guide me through.

old habit dies hard. i will have to agree on this. i couldnt keep this updated because i was lazy. wait or was i avoiding here. whatever the case, i guess this blog will soon reach its rightful place soon. the trashbin. theres no need for this anymore actually. its time to end this dumb thing.